I understand that there is someone out there that is prettier than me and smarter than me, account is MOST likely happier than mines, and just all around have different qualities that I don't have. But those are one of the things I would prefer to be ignorantly blissful about, thank you. I would rather not know that this person can juggle balls in their mouth while their upside down giving you a foot job at the same time. Keep that repressed.
I understand that no man or woman can ever truly love just one person in a lifetime, there is always potential for the next person to show you something else. You can love another person at the same degree as you loved the last person, but you may love different things about that new person that the old person just didn't have. I mean, you're shit out of luck if the new person has qualities you have AND their own qualities… you might as well end that scene. It is almost unfair to limit yourself to just one person when God (now the religious people will read this :D) has put so many exciting, different people on earth to explore.
But I am unrealistic. As many of us out there, I would like to think that I am unique. That I am different. That I am my own person. That there is nobody else Hispanic out there with the name "Maria", although I can change my name through legal procedures, I can't change the fact that the idea of my name and my name itself isn't original. And even though I claim it as my own name, 1 out of every 3 Hispanic bitches seem to have it… annnnd I hate them all.
Even if you say you're original because you wear your hair a certain way and you listen to this type of music and you don’t eat this type of food, you don’t worship this god but you worship that god, you talk like this and you may or may not use toilet paper when you take a shit. What fucking ever the case might be, there is no way you're original or unique because someone out there has done the same shit or likes the same shit or is doing and liking the same shit as we speak. Unless you came up with the alphabet, or created the world in [allegedly] 7 days--stop lying to yourself and others, but don't rub it in.
It's okay that we all bleed red and we all get wet when it rains, we all have conflicting interests or some of us may have the same interests. Keep in mind that our true self, the core of what makes us who we are never changes, but the elements that make up who we are do. So, one day I may love almost all the things about you and we may have a lot of things in common, but the next day I have grown out of certain things and end up finding someone else who shares my new interests. Of course it depends on the character of the person to determine how they would handle that situation, but you get my point. If you truly love that person, and all they have done for you, you will stick through their changes and do your best to grow with them, or let them go for the best.
Now back to my main point. Loyalty is perceived in so many ways in so many different eyes. There are people that are traditional (and in just as much denial as I am), and there are others that are not (the sluts… okay, the realistic ones). I wouldn’t even call myself traditional because I know what is true and that is that no one person can remain true to one person for the rest of their life… unless they're like 86.5 years old and dying. There will always be that one person that sneaks into a relationship and make one of the party members rethink shit, fuck up shit or end shit. Men and women will always have a wandering eye when it comes to someone attractive in their presence. Porn will never go away, so you better believe that if you're stingy giving up the goods, there is a safe outlet. People flirt all the time, eventually, maybe not early on when things are fresh in a relationship but EVENTUALLY when things get comfortable. We are human, we thrive on emotion, and we constantly search for excitement. It is normal and it isn't something to be afraid of.
Instead, embrace it. I'm not saying go out and be a slut [it's okay to slut it out once in a while though], but balance yourself. Live a great life, don't hold back, explore every emotion you can to its fullest extent even if it hurts, and always uphold your ethics and morals. I'm still figuring things out for myself so I can say I'm talking shit because I am still learning. But I know what we all know deep down inside: life is simple.
We are all here for a season, we shouldn't get so attached to so many things that we can't take with us when we die, yet we shouldn't take them for granted. Whoever finds that balance, PLEASE let me know because I'm losing brain cells trying to figure it out. Enjoy food, enjoy a few shots of vodka, enjoy whatever it is you love to do but if it's harmful don't overdo it. If you love someone, love them for who they are, don’t get frustrated because they can't change when you want them to and don't throw them to the side because they don't meet your criteria anymore. Remember why you loved them in the first place and either choose to reignite that or move on with respect. Travel the world, make friends, follow your 'dreams', love everybody for being a body, be open minded, listen don’t interrupt. Don’t judge others for shit, everybody has a relevance in your life one way or the other so treat them with respect, appreciate the family you chose, lose the fear of change or loss, SAY what you mean and don't ever be afraid of the consequences of remaining true to yourself.
If you fall in love with somebody, it is okay to see where their intentions lie, it is not okay to constantly test and play them to figure it out. Appreciate their qualities, and help improve their flaws; if they are broken, fix them. Loyalty lives where truth lives. And if you are 100% with a person, and you are genuine in what you do for them, there is no reason for that person not to give that back unless they are not ready.
Remember that we are all different in the same way and even though we think it is easier said than done, it may actually be easier done than said… or something like that. Life is simple, life can be molded to what we want it to be without fear.